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10:54

Oh hi...its been a while i updated. Let's see what's been going on. Eve of Xmas day. Went out with Hans. Spent some Q time with him. Then off to work at 2pm i went, supposedly lah, but upon reaching on a cold and drizzly Sun noon, Big Brudder Hao, said, "Hey sista!You never read my sms huh? I wanted you to come at 5 or 6, haha. Cos today we close at 230am, instead of midnight." I was like " Ha!?!? OMG. Then what am i supp to do for the next 4 hours?Sorry ah never hear my phone..." Then, sadly i walked off to the teeny tiny office under the escalator, i stared at the pc. Wondering what to do. Then so i thought, why not i start filling in forms and particulars of my dancers...to kill time, perhaps. Then took my trusty self, walked around LIDO, then decided, maybe i could take a trip around downstairs, "enjoy" the crazy pre-xmas crowd. So i did. Knowing what the crowd will be like, i had to get out of that office, cos im gonna be there again for the next few hours till dawn! Oh well, of course, tons of people in town, can't stand it. Its crazy, like shoulder to shoulder kinda crowd. What the heck!? Looked at some stuff, did some people watching, went to Popular, then walked back to Lido, all in 1.5 hours. OMG, Tommy Girl having a bloody sale! Agnes B., Ferragamo, POLO! All down 70%!!! How can i resist!?!?! Too bad whats left in my bank account is enough for 3 ezlink top up and 2 meals at BK! Haha. Still got 2.5 hours left to punch in. Hao was already smiling his way cos i was sooooo bored. No point going back home right? Chilled..by myself, then ate...by myself then used his iBook to surf some stuff. Then Ta-da! 545pm. Ok can go change now. Then i changed, got ready for work. Time to face the stupid customers, psycho them into buying and increase my sale, heehee. Went well. Had fun. Slam like 3 times. OMG you have no idea how much i miss slams, like crazy, bar and frap was clogged. Hehe. Oh, it brought back the good ol' times. End of day, checked sales, OOOOOOOOOOO great job, me! Pat on me back, then. Closed everything, partners left, i ended my work, like 415am!!! Yes i ended at THAT time, went to LT...ah...my "home" to chill.
Met Rin, chatted with her. Saw Wawa, gave her a big surprise hug from the back, she didnt see me coming heehee. Missed her. Then had fun with Ophie, Don, Farid, Muhd, Dean, Daryl, Khai....Basically chatted and fooled around behind the pastry case. Took pics and silly videos with my new plaything- my k8ooi.. :) Then i blamed EVERYONE cos they didnt inform me of the Xmas Party they had! HOW CAN U FORGET ME??!?! UPSET MAN! Apparently SOMEONE was supposed to inform everyone, but that they thought i would have known about it already. HMPH! :(Word up to Muhd and Farid, great job staying the night for graveyard shift, eh?Orang kuat, woo hoo...
Sat with Rin and friend, talked and laughed, then i got hungry and bought myself a Nissin Chilli Crab. By 5am, we were getting sleepy. Oh well, its ok, company of great pals, why not, stay the night till the first train. Checked on Faz cos i heard he was around and he went to MOS. Apparently he wanted to come and chill and go back with us, but within 15min, he smsed back saying he can hardly walk straight. haahaa. OBVIOUSLY i know what that is.
........Looked around the street....Funny tho cos the're arent as many people as there were LAST year. It was getting a lil cold.Thank god it didnt rain. We talked some more, then i went in took some more silly pics, chatted with the guys a little. Then i realised it wasn't as fun as we had few years back. EVERYONE stayed, we had our usual little suppers in store then told creepy stories, then scared ourselves, then slept on the couch, or some would chill outdoors all in the name of fun and great company. By 645am the openers would have arrived, then realised, "OMG you guys till here?" Haha. That was then. I missed all that.
Finally, it was 620am, me and my girl was getting a little too sleepy, so we decided to head home. Damn we must be really tired cos once we sat in the train, we talked a while, then we slept. Got home at 730am. Im glad Dad is great. He smsed me earlier at midnight to tell me to take care that im ending work late. He called while i was in the train. "Yeah, im heading home, dad"
Seemed like it's been a while since i had such a late night. I didnt even bother to have anything else to eat i just showered and got to bed. Planned to meet Hans again at noon, but i got up at 530pm! There, my day was gone. That was my Xmas. haahaa. Well, at least i spent some Qtime with my little kitty. He must have missed me. Swear he's like a puppy, wherever i went, he followed. :) Even when i read the papers on the floor, he'd sit smack in the middle of it.
Night came, got a bad news from Abg. He called to say sis is in hopsital. Oh dear, my kakak. What now. He said she's had a really bad fever. And cos she was also asthmatic, was still under observation at the e-ward.......Looks like i gotta get urgent leave from work. Well, i did.
And now on a cold and wet, very wet, BOXING DAY, im off from work, i gotta go make myself some hot lunch, then head to SGH to visit my darling sister. Hope all's well.

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21:18

Im so freakin pissed that people are making their own decisions then not telling the plans and whatever till the very last minute. What the hell were they thinking? No other people in this world is it? Then they pretend like nothing ever happened. Like "Dippity-Doodah"...swear i think she is a little stupid. She is. OMFG. Dunno where her EQ and common sense is anyway. Then "Chinny Chin Chin" is making things up like she's a bloody trustworthy person. What biasness crap was she ever talkin about anyway, when it seems that SHE is the freakin bias one. When all she ever was and has been is a HAS BEEN and a freakin two faced skink. OMFG.
Im gonna miss Anna. And Luc. Im gonna go if things get heated up. My word on it. I think it might.
Anyway, Luc loves her new bag. I knew she would. And the cake was good too. Well, when Anna goes on her last week next week, then thats the end of our SAGA partnership, a good one indeed. Dunno how its gonna be with me and that "Dippity-Doodah"! OMFG she IS dumb. If not for the kids I truly love, and its just me and her, thats a wrap. Go survive on your freakin fairytale, broken english philosphy. Up yours!

Apparently Sophie's friends are still on their Winter Holidays... :( all gone back to their hometown....they've been away for 2 weeks already, and wont be back till first week of Jan. They wont be able to make it! I know they'd love to!!! Yikes..then....where are my dancers!?!?!?! No time already... *stress* stress*

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20:20

Raining cats & dogs...(who really came up with this anyway?!?!?)
Well ...well... how nice it is to be snuggling up to someone right now.....Hmmmm...
Today was a good day. So cold at work. ..it felt like the bungalow's roof was about to be blown off! Yikes. The kids slept well, of course. Then somehow, nice ol me decided not to wake them up and let them snooze in their warm beds and cool air-conditioned room for another hour, but NOOOO, lil Isa and Hiko decided to have fun and get up and started prancing towards the toy chest! Then they screamed my name over & over. Then Fai came in, he's so adorable i wanna take him home. Then, everyone got up except of course, Adam. He can sleep even if the roof really came off! Fai gave me a nice big kiss and a warm hug. OMG now i really wanna bring him home. :)
Got home really early though. 545. Thats a record. Showered and everything, then i realized my relatives, and mom and dad should be home by now. They are still shopping and stuff in KL! Mom called and said she bought me a GUESS bag. Love ya mummy. I miss that vacation cos i can't take leave. Sucks.
Hey its already 830.pm. And im a lil worried they're late. Hope its just a jam. I hate their highways. They already encountered a horrid accident at Simpang Renggam, aka, the Death Highway, thank god nothing happened. God loves them still.
Getting hungry. Gramps not cooking. Think i'll settle for some soup in a can while waiting for mummy & daddy dearest to arrive.

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23:17

Weeeeeeeee...........got a new phone. Wah after soooooooooooo damn long, i finally decided on a Sony Ericsson K800i. Had a LG Choc white in my hand to match my PSP, but then i think im way too rough for that phone..... Anyway, now i can be on a vid/pic taking frenzy....I like....
Now thinking if i should upgrade my psp to pink. Hmm.....
Then i got Stella McCartney's Zalika......weeeeeeeeee...Thanks Li!!!
Should i get the bag too....

Anyway, still recruiting dancers for 07 DW.
Wonder how's Sophie's helping me out then.....
hmm......

Went out with Nini today for her bday shopping...then she started talking of things that were bothering her.... She reminds me of myself when i was 13.
Being the middle child and not getting enough attention, feeling like everyone is unfair, then you end up with so much angst and keep thinking of things like how come you are always wrong and everyone blames you.... Poor kid.
Anyway, that little conversation we had was touching.She cried. I told her my side of the story of what i did when i was 14, to see if my parents even loved me. Well, prob shouldnt have shared that one cos i made her cry even more! GOSH. Then we BOTH cried. Wow.

So we decided to cheer ourselves out by shopping. Still owe her 13th bday present, but she still couldnt decide what she wanted. We had lunch then shopped, browsed then had cake at Cedele. Monster Choc for her, Hazelnut for mine......YUMMMMMMMMMM
What a nice way to end the day.
Hope all's well for the child. Have always been like a little sis to me...while im missing my big sis. All married and having her own place and all :(

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22:29

Hey...just been thinking about how and when im ever gonna settle down. Coming to terms that im going to be...heck...TWENTY FIVE in the next 4months and five days...and feelin like im still a damn teenager when most of the people i know, are ...planning....engaged... married...having kids..buying houses.....buying cars......migrating...flying....making money..(loads of it!)....
......While all im doing is working a lot...a lot. And spending a lot of time at home, where i actually hardly ever do in my younger days!..... then i realised that my cat misses me being at home. Or i just chill out somewhere with some friends...that is IF and WHEN i am NOT that exhausted.

Sometimes i wish i could just go back to being a teenager. I was young, didnt have to work for money( imagine having $500 monthly allowance?!?!....at thirteen!?!), and i could get my hands on anything i want, looking forward to every single day's happening, sleepovers, being with tons of friends, getting into some mischief, doing all the sports and activities you can, performing on stage, spending at the arcades, shopping ALL the time-----> shop. Not shoplift. And the only things you really worry about are keeping friends and having good grades.

And now im 24, and REALLY working full time, watching my once FIT dad, getting ill with his headaches and such, and my grandparents aging, and my brother doing what i did when i was young, is kinda killing me. I do scream at the bugger but then i'd think again, he is just enjoying his youth, and mine is going to come to an end. It hurts, when i think of the day when Dad retires. Whats going to happen? Will i be able to help? Are we gonna move? Will his health and physique deteriorate? What will my brother do?
Oh dear... is this retribution for spending all my parents' hard earned money?
Do i have to work like this like FOREVER??!!? ............I AM SOOOOO SORRY!
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.....damn....i miss my youth.

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23:08

Where can i even start...Hmmm....Past few months have been bloody taxing.... Past few weeks been hell. Past few days have been pretty OK. Not good, just ok.... this is my second blog....I forgot the id and password of the first. Well, that's smart isnt it. Been having too many things to think about.
Work. Life. Money.
Work...Not sure if this is what i wanna do for the rest of my life.
Life....i need more LIFE> im not born rich. To be working 25-28 days consecutively non stop for a month flat....Im dying out here. Naturally my metabolism rate is always on a record high, but at this rate im living....im just way to exhausted to be doing anything else but catch up on sleep and rest whenever i can....train, bus, cab....and that means even at the bus stop/ mrt stat if i could!
Money....simply said. No work, no money, no life.

.Out.

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